I have had a HORRIBLE week. For the first time in my life last night I believed I actually would be able to commit suicide. I have binged and purged multiple times, otherwise haven’t eaten at all. Drank to drown the sorrows. Self-harmed once again. Alienated my mom, friends, family. I’m just about to my breaking point. If I don’t get into PHP I am really, really screwed. Just needed to get this out there.
I don’t think I can handle the pressure of finals on top of all this. I just don’t know what to do.